~Will y0u MaRrY mE~

Hehehehe~! SuPer contented... A woman's best friend...
Got my 'Best friend' several days ago along with a bouquet of roses. Hahaha! Corny? Maybe lor... But i like. Thank you Hubby!~ Muacks~

Okay, now let's get serious...
Been trying to perk up and get back to my cheery old self but... I'm still emotionally unstable.. Jas, I think you'll know that I've been in great distress...
Still feeling very weak yet trying to put away the "half-dead" look with a forced smile.
For a while I'll be ok and then I'll be worried & scared about everything.
Been crying one minute and laughing the next minute, loss of appetite one day and over-eating on the next day. Can't sleep well, dreams about everything and everyone each time I close my eyes. The above cycle is repetitive.
What's happening to me? Never felt worse than this...

Life's hard... Making important decisions are even harder.
"Am I suppose to make decisions so that everybody else is happy when I'm not? Or should I decide to be happy and let everybody think that I'm plain selfish?"
What will you do if you were me? If it involves the happiness of those who loves you? And it's a decision that will change your life forever...
What will you do? Will you be noble for their sake or be selfish for your own sake?

I really need help... HELP... But from who? God? Hahaha.. I'll be an idiot if God helps.
Never mind... nobody can help... Forget it... Maybe I should live life as it comes?
Hell... I'll like to go to hell.