PLEASE READ BOLD PRINTS ALOUD
"Are we drifting apart? Just when I though we found our linkage? Am I meant to be your subsititude during your long, lonely days? Am I suppose to be on your beck and call?Am I suppose to be there for you when you weren’t even there for me?"
That is so familiar, I remembered it was one of your issues with her. And now you are using it against me. Well…??? HAHA!!
Just when have I treated you as a Substitute? Please think twice before you put sentences like these. I won’t claim credit. But I want to make it clear.
Were you blaming me for not being there for you when I was pregnant? Did I not rush down to your place with a fucking big belly in the middle of the night when you had one of your worst break-ups? Stood by you when they blacklisted you. Maybe that wasn’t good enough for you. But please bear in mind, I was pregnant and there's a limit to what I can do.
Let's talk about the Present.
I made it a point to check whether you are ok most of the time. But your replies were vague and mostly just obligating. Sometimes I feel that if I never asked, you will never tell me. And talk about not being there for you? What a Joke! Being so, have you ever given me a chance to be there for you? I fought for my own chance to be there for you in case you have anything to voice out.
Whenever I'm available or when Jayson isn’t around, I'll ask you out for shopping or even just coffee.
But have you ever thought of me in that manner? I guess not. You'd rather be drinking somewhere with somebody else.
I hope you realise that you are not living in your own world and your moodiness do affect the people around you. One of them is Me. If that doesn’t bother you, then go ahead ‘coz you have every right to feel the way you want to feel. But I'm just showing my concern. And I'm like a fucking idiot who keeps bothering you about any problems you might be facing.
If you can laugh, giggle with the rest, then why do you show your unhappiness to me exclusively. I realised this since the day I started working at DLS.
"Are we drifting apart? Just when I though we found our linkage? Am I meant to be your subsititude during your long, lonely days? Am I suppose to be on your beck and call?Am I suppose to be there for you when you weren’t even there for me?"
That is so familiar, I remembered it was one of your issues with her. And now you are using it against me. Well…??? HAHA!!
Just when have I treated you as a Substitute? Please think twice before you put sentences like these. I won’t claim credit. But I want to make it clear.
Were you blaming me for not being there for you when I was pregnant? Did I not rush down to your place with a fucking big belly in the middle of the night when you had one of your worst break-ups? Stood by you when they blacklisted you. Maybe that wasn’t good enough for you. But please bear in mind, I was pregnant and there's a limit to what I can do.
Let's talk about the Present.
I made it a point to check whether you are ok most of the time. But your replies were vague and mostly just obligating. Sometimes I feel that if I never asked, you will never tell me. And talk about not being there for you? What a Joke! Being so, have you ever given me a chance to be there for you? I fought for my own chance to be there for you in case you have anything to voice out.
Whenever I'm available or when Jayson isn’t around, I'll ask you out for shopping or even just coffee.
But have you ever thought of me in that manner? I guess not. You'd rather be drinking somewhere with somebody else.
I hope you realise that you are not living in your own world and your moodiness do affect the people around you. One of them is Me. If that doesn’t bother you, then go ahead ‘coz you have every right to feel the way you want to feel. But I'm just showing my concern. And I'm like a fucking idiot who keeps bothering you about any problems you might be facing.
If you can laugh, giggle with the rest, then why do you show your unhappiness to me exclusively. I realised this since the day I started working at DLS.
FYI:
I do appreciate all the big and small things you did and the fact that you’ve walked this far with me.
Forget what I did, I'm just a fool who shouldn't be interfering with your life.
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