I Am Not Lost

My Friend, I’m neither unhappy nor dissatisfied with my life at present. I am just struggling to get use to living with a family whom I only got to know less than a year ago. Reality is cruel. Daughters get married and they may sometimes become detached from their own families, sounds pathetic doesn’t it?

Back home, I have wonderful parents, who pamper & love me selflessly. But here, The Husband is the only person I have.

I miss home. I miss lying on Mom’s lap while watching telly, I miss Dad coming into the room on Sundays to check on me while I pretend to sleep, I miss my brothers’ laughter, I miss every bit of Hobbit and I miss my Granny’s ranting.

I’ve learnt that in Life, it’s normal to gain and lose at the same time. I gained a family of my own but lost the privilege of living like a baby protected under my parents’ wings. However, I know my parents still love & care about me. It seems I may not have lost after all.

Similarly, you did not lose me and you never will.
I may have gotten married with different priorities and thus, neglected your needs for me as a confidant.

My Friend,
I’m sorry for not being able to be there for you as much as before while you’re putting in every effort to be with me.
My Friend,
I’m sorry for making you worry about my health, happiness and well-being. In time, I will be stronger. I’m now in the midst of a transition and everything will soon be okay.
My Friend,
I want you to know your significance in my life. Apart from The Husband; you are the next person I want to grow old with. Get it?

Yup, he does get bored when the 3 of us go out together but I’ll have to let him follow in order to minimize his worries ‘coz I may go into labor anytime from now.
So just bear with me till I’m able to grasp the momentum of family life especially after Jamie’s arrival.

*winks*