Life?..
Have to admit that since young, I've never been successful keeping a diary. Maybe this explains why I haven't been able to maintain a constant update on my blog. Not that I thought anybody would be reading it but it's just one of my ways to pour out what I've been thinking yet unable to speak. (Can't even find my diary... can't remember when it was last seen.??)
Just yesterday... we were at each other's throats again. I hate to think of this but I do hope that we are not wasting our time and lives away.
See? Didn't I protest from the very beginning that this is not the solution to our problem. But again, I cannot go against the wishes of the majority.
It's a mistake on my part...
(1) I crossed lines that I shouldn't have crossed.
(2) I might have given you the wrong idea, making you think that I was more than ready.
(3) I wasn't firm enough. I had a choice but I gave it up knowing nobody supports me.
(4) I gave up totally letting you decide and letting you tell me now that you've made a wrong one.
I was scared... and I'm still scared
I was under-prepared, and I'm tired
Just how long must I pay for my mistakes?
Like what he told me, "Life isn't always what you want it to be, things don't always go your way..." - Probably that's the reason why I gave up. Yeah, life isn't always what I want it to be.
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